Friday, October 31, 2008

Happy Halloween

I normally get really into Halloween, this year not so much. I haven't gotten out any decorations, and I even forgot about carving pumpkins. I never even bought myself one big enough to carve.
I will admit, it's a bit depressing. I sort of had tentative plans or hopes to go Trick-or-Treating with my niece and nephew this year because I was unable to make it to go with them last year. So much for that.

I seem to be doing ok most days, if I don't think about what is really going on with my life and I keep myself busy I can manage to push it to the very back of my mind, appearing to most people to be just fine. However it's still there, and a depression and sadness permeates every moment of each day. It's building up and I feel the impending crash coming. Things still have to be dealt with, paperwork needs to be filed. Supposedly that should be happening in a couple weeks. Once that is done, I'll have 6 months until the next very large milestone.

I'm getting my hair done today! Yeay! Thank God for small moments of joy.


emeraldwednesday said...

**hugs** A. I think you're doing amazingly well.

NorCalMrs said...

Hugs to you from me too. I know it's hard. Hang in there. You are a very strong woman!